Five Years : True Love

When I used to hear people say, “It is because of Allah,” or, “Allah is enough,” I would repeat those words as well, mostly as an affirmation of faith.

But now, I understand their meaning.

Over the past five years, especially since the turbulence of 2021, I have witnessed how Allah has carried me through moments of rise and fall. Today, when I look at my reflection, I can say with certainty: I have survived only by the care and love of Allah.

I cannot count how many times Allah has saved me. This is not merely a phrase we utter; it is a reality I have experienced repeatedly, in ways both visible and unseen, externally and within my own heart. There were many moments when I felt ready to give up, yet something within me resisted: I did not want to disappoint my Lord. Whenever loneliness approaches, I remind myself that Allah has always been near, loving me in ways no human ever could. Whenever feelings of worthlessness appear, I return to the Qur’an and remember that Allah speaks to the hearts of His servants. In those moments, I ask myself: how can I feel worthless when I am constantly addressed by the Most Merciful?

Five years ago, these words felt abstract. Today, they feel profoundly real.

In every second of my life, in every heartbeat, in every breath that fills my lungs, and in every cell within my body, I love Him. Even if the entire world were to disappear, I know I would remain at peace as long as I am in His Rahmah. Yet even if the world stood beside me, I could not endure a single moment without the warmth of His love, the love that gives meaning to every other love I have known in this life.

What once felt like abstract words has now become a living reality. “Allah is enough” is not merely a phrase we say, it is a truth that reveals itself in the unseen ways Allah protects, guides, and heals us.

Of course, we are all sinners, and sometimes that awareness frightens us. Yet the door of hope in Allah’s mercy is never closed. What matters is that we keep striving, keep returning, and keep choosing Him again and again. As a quote once said, “Love is not magic or chemistry. Love is determination. Love is a choice we make.” In many ways, loving Allah is also a choice, a choice to return to Him in every circumstance.

Five years ago, a particular moment in my life led me to write about what I thought was first love. But through that moment, and everything that followed, Allah has taught me the meaning of true love. Ofcourse, life teaches each of us differently, but perhaps the lesson is the same: true love is the love that leads us back to Allah.

Every person walks a unique path in their relationship with Him. But one effort remains the same for all of us, to understand His message, to keep Him in our hearts, and to nurture that relationship throughout our lives. May Allah allow us to keep strengthening this love, until the day we are honored with the most beautiful meeting: meeting Him.